September 4, 2023, 5:34 AM
Day 6 of on-and-off rains here in Manila. Blame it on Goring, Hanna, and the monsoon rains and winds, I’m literally feeling under the weather.
I’ve been planning to write just about anything since last week, but lethargy (and I guess no motivation/inspiration) kept me from doing so. Instead, I got myself busy with finishing Suleika Jaouad’s “Between Two Kingdoms”, uploading fun Instagram reels on my recent vacation and August activities, and trying to organize my week. In short, just trying to stay sane amidst this weather. I felt bad that all my schedules got canceled, but what one can do?
Because I got to stay in and just in my own company, I also got to do a lot of thinking - up to the point of overthinking.
Jaouad’s book was so cathartic for me, that I bawled my eyes out in between pages. She wrote the words I wanted to write and had the same feelings as me, especially during my post-surgery. That feeling of “I will never have my past life back” just hit differently for me. And yes, it’s a hard truth that I must lovingly accept. As I write this part, I can feel my tears welling up. Oh well, let me feel this and move on…
“Moving forward”, according to Suleika, is more appropriate. I guess so. I have to move forward. I guess I also have to be kinder to myself and give myself a pat on the back for a successful recovery. The journey isn’t an easy one, but I’m thankful that I am thriving in it.
It’s been long overdue, but I plan to write daily journals. I may post it on my personal blog - with no readers so far. My writing journey has again begun, and I hope to keep at it.